I strive for modesty - it's far in the future. I never really really understood this concept and in my most uplifting moments I understood it as "as if" piety and consideration for others. Or a painful relinquishment of my will for the other rule - such as our mother Rachel.
Today I already understand that my barrier to understanding lies in my self-importance - if I am not my body (the modesty of the garment), I am at least my "beliefs", and if I am not - then - a dead end.
I pray to God to free me from the character flaw of self-importance, with all its cunning, so that I can cling to modesty and taste on its behalf.
Dina Horowitz
